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So much has happened sense the last time I wrote post but I have a giant secret and it needs be told even though no one will see this, I will feel so much better to write it down. Have you ever been "the other woman" mistress if you will? Well just in case you haven't it stinks so bad and to be honest I don't even think that's what he considers me today I asked him what we were and he said friends, I'm sorry but really a day after you call me and base clay beg me to come over. Maybe a back story would help. This is going to be a short story so keep up, okay so I dated lets call him k,okay so I dated K in junior high and we dated for about 6-7 months and it was good I really really liked him I don't want to say love cause I mean how many junior high girls really love their boyfriends anyway I really liked and for life reasons we broke up and it really sucked, a lot. Well him no my best friend had been friends sense they were little and their families know each other very well. Well,what ended   happening was that a few years later they started going out and by this time I still kinda liked never really got over him kinda deal but I moved on and forgot,well it was hard to forget some who would constantly text you to come over to their house. And I finally got my car well he just kept asking some reason or another I would say no. Well about a month ago I said yes! And please mind that we talked on and off a lot, but I went over with no more than trying to be friends and don't worry nothing happened well nothing like kissing etc. but to be honest when I'm with him everything just goes away and I just him to hug me, and at that time it doesn't matter that he has a girlfriend it's like we never broke up so many years away, I know it's horrible and wrong to cheap but there's just something about him that I can't get away from and i just want to be with him. But again to that first question guess what it sucks I hate it because that means that he kisses her and not me and hugs her and tells her he loves her, I don't know maybe I'm just being a stupid little girl but I just I don't know I want him and I'm not rarely told no so this is very hard for me I just miss him.